2009 - Update in Progress & Learning to Breathe...

Beginning of 2009 brought me new memories with new friends. Whistler adventures, lots of laughing and drunken stupidity, and most importantly lessons on finding out who your true friends are who'll stick by you through thick and thin.

The second half of 2009 brought me some happiness and tears. With a new ride, I can finally go where I want to go, but at the same time, not having someone special to enjoy these new places with. In a time when I'm suppose to be building new memories with someone, I am learning lessons on who I am, what I want in life, and how to adjust to someone new in my life.

It hurts to be able to find a person who you have this wonderful connection with, who shares similar goals and interests, yet in the end, have to stop and say goodbye to, whether it be temporarily or permanent. So with this sadness, I am following Taylor Swift's song, "Breathe":

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
Its the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause its tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I dont know what to be without you around.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesnt work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it's not easy,
Easy for me.
It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.

Hope you know this ain't easy,
Easy for me.

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

Ohhh

I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry